Topic: Am I a jerk?
Posted: 2020-May-13 11:11
i had fun reading this,
Even though you pose the question: am i a jerk, you only write the stuf in a sort of braging way. To be honest, i think you are a jerk. And here is my vision on why i think so. Ofcourse these conclusions are based on speculation and guessing. But if you realise that it is what comes to my mind first you might find the strength to do your own soulsearching and look at it objectively.
So here it goes: At least more than one of these are being open about what they want and need. Yet you stay at a distance cover your emotions and motives in a as you say "poker face". The only emotion and intrest you show is in the girl you cant have.
Seeing as you made all of this public and you do sleep or fool or spend time with all these woman in a way that if they knew they would not aprove. Yet you crave their approval en affection to obtain a form of selfworth. I thing you will manage to get the girl that makes you smile, but the conquest will leave you empty and wanting for more aproval and love to fill a hole that cant be filled. it will never be filled until you stop feeling the need to fill it. And that comes from within.
So are you a jerk: Yes you are. Do you always have to be one, no you dont have to, but work and focus on yourself instead of doing things that will hurt others.
So where does all this semi-wisdom come from. Well reading this section was for me like reading about myself 1 year + ago. And it broke me. I went to hell and back for several months to realise that all the woman in the wolrd wont make me happy or stop asking the question " am i a Jerk "
I wish you all the best in tackling this.
